*Listen by Beyonce*

I found a new song that really fits me... after the "Hate that I love you"... here comes a song which tells what I've been through and what I am right now... so just listen.... I love it!

• Listen to the song here in my heart
• a melody I start but can't complete
• Listen to the sound from deep within
• Its only beginning to find release
• Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
• They will not be pushed aside and turned
• Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen
• [chorus]
• Listen
• I am alone at a crossroads
• I'm not at home in my own home
• And I've tried and tried
• To say whats on my mind
• You should have known
• Now I'm done believing you
• You don't know what I'm feeling
• I'm more than what
• You've made of me
• I followed the voice, you gave to me
• But now I've gotta find my own
• You should have listened
• There was someone here inside
• Someone I thought had died
• So long ago
• Oh I'm screaming out
• And my dreams will be heard
• They will not be pushed Aside or turned
• Into your own
• All 'cause you won't listen
• [chorus]
• Listen
• I am alone at a crossroads
• I'm not at home in my own home
• And I've tried and tried
• To say whats on my mind
• You should have known
• Now I'm done believing you
• You don't know what I'm feeling
• I'm more than what
• You've made of me
• I followed the voice, you gave to me
• But now I've gotta find my own
• You should have listened
• I don't know where I belong
• But I'll be moving on
• If you don't, if you won't
• Listen to the song here in my heart
• A melody I start, but I will complete
• Now I am done believing you
• You don't know not what I am feeling
• I'm more than what you've made of me
• I followed the voice you think you gave to me
• But now I got to find my own - my own

MY NEW LIFE...

• I'm done with one rotation... 2 months had passed... I missed Surgery, the people I worked with, the operations... I missed hanging at the callroom having the morning "chichi" with med clerks
• it's June already, now I am in Pediatrics specifically on Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU)... dealing with the "tiyanaks" is quiet toxic but fun
• I am shock on my new work with the neonates but in a way I am starting to adjust myself... next 20 days at ER Pedia then Wards... I am lucky my duty residents are nice... thanks Dr. De Castro and Dr. Tirto
• I am so much in-love staying in the hospital and being with the patients... haha!
• daily routine of going on duty... PRE---DUTY--POST = 34 hours of no sleep
• I missed my home... I missed my bed... I'm happy mom is going home soon...
• I am not quitting anymore... this is where I really belong... 10 more months and I am almost there
• I am happy in such a way that my life is not complicated anymore
• I have a number of true and trusted friends around... thanks!
• being in the medical field is not easy... you just have to love what you're doing... patience and hardwork = successful doctor
• I really admire the doctors nowadays coz I am experiencing what they've been through
• I don't have any other life aside from the hospital
• I haven't go out since April... WOW... I wish I can find time to go out, chill, clubbing, beach... oh well... this will happen on April 2009
• I am no more a cry baby... I am tough... haha! I wish... I dunno... I am happy for a reason I cant explain
• no more heartaches, bitterness, loneliness.... I walked away on the past... I am ready for a new one... finally!
• now I am living a simple happy life
• I JUST LOVED BEING LOVE...

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*busy me at clerks callroom*