I don't know...

Why am i like this??? I'm hurting the person who really loves me most... i hate myself... I'm sorry babe -iloveyoustill- I was so irritated with my health... so many appoinments with the doctors for check up, more upcoming minor surgery to my dentist, need a check up for my hormones, high blood pressure... can't even sleep and do little activities 'coz i always have a hard time breathing... this sucks. I can't even enjoy my vacation... all plans are cancelled... I missed going out, shopping, partying, my friends... but I really can't... But what I really missed??? doing every little thing with george... can't wait for the time again... I do want coffee... starbucks would somehow make me feel a little better. I can't eat a lot... so many restrictions but still I'm gaining more weight... eeewwwww! I want chocolates... ferrero and lays??? I'm sad for trying to settle issues which i think hmmmmmmm... i don't know and i don't really know... i don't have any more pride to swallow. I can't bring back the old times but I wish I can still fix it. I got promoted but will I be able to enroll??? This really hurts... Is it really goodbye??? I hope NOT! Haaaaaayyyyyyy... ENOUGH!!! Brat angel signing off... I don't think I'm making any sense at all... but its good I feel a lot better now. Later!