Revelations...

Life is such a surprise... you don't even know what will happen as time goes. I am not that brave to face whatever it is but i am tryng to deal with those things... sometimes i failed but at least i try. I don't know what I really feel and what I need to think. But i just wanna say these things:

• i am sorry for not being so loyal to you... i feel so bad for hurting someone who's really dear to me
• i am upset with the friendship... i don't think i am a good influence to you
• what is this? i just wanna be close and i am happy being with you... *playing safe??*
• its hard to find someone who will treat you the way you want it
• i can't pleased you... every words from my mouth is bad... drama, issue, guilt trip??? i hope not... i don't intend to do things like that
• i am hurting... you're pulling me down
• define BEST FRIEND...
• not doing good with acads.. can't even focus... i am so tired
• attachment just make you feel upset and will HURT YOU
• i know i don't want you.. i am just happy i have a good friend
• a good friend who doesn't even want me or like me but still choose to go with me... weird
• i lose a friend but its not my fault anymore
• i didn'y do anything..you don't want me because you hate me for being close with... i don't know... such an unreasonable thing..maybe you should think bout that again
• i can't do anything.. NO SORRY for you unless ur gonna admit something... but i wll still think of it... i am used to it
• why can't we say straight things???
• why do you make someone feel you want being with her but you treat her as if nothing's going on?
• how do u value things?? what will they think if they know evrything that's happening?
• i am such a bitch... is should respect my self and think before doing sometihing
• when will i learn??
• i just want to be appreciated
• i want to be loved
• i want someone who will tell the world about me being with him
• i don't want secrets or hiding of things... it only means you are afraid
• ready for commitment? its hard to find someone like that
• limitations and self-control.. most important..i dnt have this the past few weeks
• i hate myself
• i want everything to be clear
• i wanna quit in med and be with someone right now who loves me the way i am
• thanks for accepting me
• thanks for the friends who tried to listen and explain to me things
• i missed you
• sorry.. i've made a lot of mistakes.. but let me deal with this... i owe you a lot... you're such a great guy
• you're a big lost to me
• i hope i can still patch up things
• i hope its not yet late
• i love you
• i will try to have a new life...
• you made me realize a lot of things
• i don't know what am i to you... you are my friend and i don't know
• enough...