Goodbyes...

I always see your face even if my eyes are close. It's hard not to think of you though I am hurting really bad. I don't know how hard this thing to us, but facing the reality will heal the wounds in our hearts. Christmas was over... it was not as memorable as last year which was the best Christmas for us. Today is a more special day but everything is forgotten. I think I should not do this anymore. Remembering so much things about you make me cry more. I took the risk for almost a year, tried to fight for the feelings that was really true and yet things came to me like this. I don't want to hate anyone else anymore. I expected more from you. You did not fight for our LOVE. I know I am strong, but because of you... i became so weak. I need to admit that things will never be the same without you. But I am really hurt.. I need to accept this as a consequence of the risk I had made before. I never ever lied to you. I have loved you more than what you think. I may be wrong for sometime but you know I mean all my words. I am sorry for not being the best that you want. Thank you for being a part of my so called life. I am a wounded soldier now... I am so lost... and this going to be more painful... but i really need to say this... GOODBYE!!!