So much depression...

• things are moving so fast...
• now i am feeling so sad for so many reasons
• where's my friend who seems to be here?
• thanks to morie and tal for just being there, not listening nor asking... but you always make me feel better guys... i had fun last night with you girls
• this time, mixed feelings exploded
• i don't want to regret things i did
• i don't like some things, people around me
• I DON'T WANT TO EXPECT ANYMORE
• being ignored and not even appreciated are the most painful things
• unfair relationship with friends.... no comment
• i thought, i made the right decision... i thought i will be happy here
• i wish i have the old feeling... feeling of being loved, prioritized and cared by someone who's not saying any word but just doing things
• friends or best friend???
• thanks for inspiring me to step back
• it's hard to give advice to someone knowing i am on the same situation and i can't deal with exactly the same problem
• i wish i can say this thing to someone worth to trust
• i go beyond the limit... and that is why i am treated this way...
• i feel so sorry for myself
• i love him but i don't love him
• i can't talk to him.. he won't listen... everything i say is no big deal and just a problem
• when will you admit to yourself that you feel the same way???
• where should i start? or should i even bring this stuff...
• i am so tired of crying... dealing with all dilemmas
• so people out there whose assuming they know me... the hell with you...
• stop playing games
• don't talk behind my back
• happy now???
• you made me stronger...
• wait till i am ready to face and reveal things...
• i DON'T need you (*tears falling*)
• i'm OUT!

Saturday at The Fort

.i love kebabs at ziggurat.

.lounge at club ascend. .ciara.z.abz.drew.pao.

.house music: saturday night @ ascend.

.what are these??? BAD.

.krispy kreme with the girls.

.honey beers.

Friday at Metrowalk

• after the last toxic preceptorials in Medicine which Dr. Tirona let us wait for more than 2 hours... finally it's done...
• i had plan to go out with med friends to Fort but as usual so much backing out... it's ok, though i am tired of talking and talking and deciding... we ended up laughing and had a great dinner delivery at shakey's
• good thing, i am free and i can go out to see my high school friends
• it's kinda tiring from school... but i texted mae... i will go (yehey)
• no one knows i'm going... it will be a surprise (and it was)
• i went there with mae, her boyfriend jose which is my co-med student and jhaja
• destination: metrowalk then decades
• it was a nice place
• drink, chill, chikas... but the highlight of the night: jha's dare to do the bull ride
• i had fun... really
• i missed all of them... and i am looking forward for more
• i love you gurls... aka BONDS
• i really treasured the pic... finally... haha!

.BONDS. .my.abz.mae.kitch.jha.anna.

ROTA post christmas party...

• finally, the much awaited gift giving was over
• had dinner first at LZM... good food with ky
• we waited for dianne (as usual) to be back for complete attendance
• everyone was excited... what am i gonna get? who pick my name?
• these are the memorable pics at drew's place: the gift giving ceremony 2008

ROTA GIFT GIVING

.the awesome canadian bear keychain from our dearest t.bear.

.chocolate party fresh from toronto and cali c/o tal and drew.

.showing off our bags of candies and chocolates.

.the circle of sweets with mr.wong.

.funniest match: alex and morie literally exchanged their gifts.

.one, two, three... show your gifts.

.again again again... aaron wants his shirt to be taken.

.finally a good rota pic... thanks barbs... morie, yihiiiiii.

.aaron got his imported nike shirt (size: small) from tal.

.dianne's cologne and parker pen from aaron.

.me not showing what dianne gave me... she picked me again... haha... laugh trip. .she gave me a purple umbrella with hanky. .she didn't follow my wishlist... oh well its dianne. .but i like it... thanks girl.

.what an awesome gift drew, who gave that to you? haha. .the much awaited la salle jersey... you're an official basketball player of UAAP. .drew: THAT'S WICKED MAN.

.tal gossip girl book not available anywhere... haha... got her starbux mug from drew.

Stepping back or Moving on???

.girls night at Embassy The Fort. .ryan.joice.ciara.abz.mabs.anne.belle.kaycee.joffie.

• i should be happy
• unclear things are getting clearer
• no more misunderstandings
• got a lot of interest in studying
• i am inspired with so many people
• loving the girls and gimik group + clerks
• such a great time with everyone
• stepping back... now i know i can do it... no more complications
• i love mobz and tal
• i missed him... i mean YOU.... i missed you singing...
• i am so happy... dunno why...
• thanks for the blessings
• we will see each other soon...
• still looking forward for bora
• super smile... *sweet*

*just for G*

i love you "J"... you saved ME!!!

• i got a full meal the whole day
• need to start my diet for BORA... i wish
• national treasure is ok
• got a new top and skirt
• can't wait for the first party of the year
• 3 weeks of examination is getting nearer
• FINALS... remedials??? promotion??? clerkship???
• this day ended bad
• got a worst fight
• texted my friends... i want to drink.... never mind
• thank god "J" saved me
• now, i am ready to sleep and thinking how to start my day good
• i'm out

Now, it's my turn... Medical Specialty Aptitude Test!!!

Oh gad, can't believe on the result... haha! let's see on this test after few more years.Up to now, its really hard for me to choose what field do I want. Pediatrics was the very first but see its one of the last on the list... haha! What a challenge right???

Rank	Specialty	Score
1	pathology	50
2	nuclear med	48
3	thoracic surgery	48
4	occupational med	48
5	plastic surgery	48
6	emergency med	48
7	dermatology	48
8	nephrology	48
9	med oncology	46
10	hematology	46
11	gastroenterology	46
12	endocrinology	46
13	radiology	46
14	neurology	46
15	rheumatology	46
16	ophthalmology	46
17	obstetrics/gynecology	44
18	otolaryngology	44
19	pulmonology	44
20	psychiatry	44
21	general surgery	44
22	physical med & rehabilitation	44
23	aerospace med	44
24	cardiology	44
25	general internal med	44
26	family practice	44
27	colon & rectal surgery	44
28	anesthesiology	44
29	allergy & immunology	44
30	radiation oncology	44
31	infectious disease	44
32	urology	44
33	pediatrics	42
34	preventive med	42
35	neurosurgery	42
36	orthopaedic surgery	42